March 12, 2008, Praises Along the Way- Thoughts and Prayers

This morning I was thinking about another family in crisis in our town. How terrible it must be for them as her husband is the one stricken with cancer. Not to have my husband's arms around me at night. Not to have him with me would be so hard. He's been used of God mightily to minister to my heart. To comfort me and help me stay strong. I pray for this family, for his wife that she will be strong and courageous, easier said than done I'm sure. I ask the Lord to hold them together in one of his mighty hands and cover them with the other. I pray that the Lord would heal her husband and every heart involved from the inside out.

The pressure on them must be extreme. Pushing in on them from every side. I have heard people say and I have said it myself that God won't give us more than we can bear, but as I looked for the verse to back up what I was thinking, it wasn't there! I only found that God won't give us more than we can bear where temptation is involved. I've always wondered about that because sometimes it seems God puts so much pressure on us that we break. Now that I think of it, there are a lot of scriptures about being broken, crushed, hard pressed, molded, and Jesus even says we will go through trials and tribulations.

Monday, I was stretched so thin I didn't think I could hold on. The wear on a person in this situation is deceptive. I just always feel a little tired but there is this "mom motor" in me that just keeps on going and going like the energizer bunny. I also tire pretty quickly. Tuesday, my body was at work but my mind was elsewhere. Concentration is difficult for me at times anyway, then add this to it, and I really had to work at it.

I told my "gift of God" husband (Matthew means gift of God) yesterday that I don't know what it is that God wants to do with me in this area. I ask for help when I need it, it doesn't seem that it's a matter of pride. What is it God? What are you working out of me so I can agree with you and get rid of it and not have to go around this mountain again!

Maybe it's to teach me to go to him constantly about every little thing. I know in my head that he wants me to do this. Scriptures come to mind that back up these thoughts but in my heart I think, "That would be annoying to me if I were God!" There is something in me that doesn't want to bother anyone, that hates to ask. Everyone has their own personal tragedies they are dealing with, mine is not bigger or more tragic than others. Maybe it is pride and independence. Maybe it's patience. It always seems that during these really stressful times in my life God sends someone for me to be patient with. I feel like I'm rambling.

Lord, I give up my reasoning, I give up my thoughts, I lay them at your feet. Open my eyes, give me wisdom and knowledge, give me heart revelation instead of fleshly thoughts or reasoning by traditions of men. I want to see. Heal me. Lord, do the same for my children; that they may stand on my spiritual shoulders, to go from where I am in you and reach deeper into you. I am still and I know that you are God, I wait patiently on you to heal us and deliver us. I love you, Lord. Amen.


Anonymous said...

Christy - I know that alot of people have said to you "let us know if you need anything" and you are so polite and say ok we will. But I mean "anything" and we will be there for you guys!! I feel the same as you do as far as not wanting to be a bother. We have known each other long enough to ask for help. We love you guys so much and just want to be used of God in any way that you need us. Even if it is laundry after your mom goes back to Florida. Anything you need you just call. We love ya'll. Mike & Marianne

Anonymous said...

It's true that Jesus told us of trials and tribulations - and that He wont' allow us to be tempted more than we can bear without a way out.

Trials bring us tempations - that tell us to give up or give in. I praise Jesus that he has already been there ahead of us and has provided us a way out. Keep the vertical communication line open.

I thank God for the strength I see in your family. Not having been there myself - I can only pray that I would be as strong.

Your family is constantly in my prayers. Thank you for your witness and STAY STRONG in the LORD.

Greg from Kreager Brothers.

Lori Bieber said...

Your entire family is still in my prayers. We had good news in our family this week. My father in law with brain cancer is going from every month on the chemo pill to every other month. If God can work things like that in Florida he can do it for your daughter. I know days get hard with this dease. You get mad and you want to give up, but there is Our Good Lord saying don't I am there beside you. Don't forget that. It has helped us threw some really tough times. Attitude and faith is very important in this. Give your daughter goals to look forward to and to fight for. We try and give my father in law a goal. First it was my daughter's graduation and now it is our son which is his second grandchild.
May God keep you and guide you. Stand beside you.
God Bless,

Anonymous said...

But He said to me, My grace(My favor and loving-kindness and mercy) is enough for you (sufficient against any danger and enables you to bear the trouble manfully); for My strength and power are made perfect (fulfilled and completed) and show themselves most effective in (your) weakness. Therefore, I will all the more gladly glory in my weaknesses and infirmities,that the strength and power of Christ (the Messiah) may rest (yes, may pitch a tent over and dwell upon me! 2 Cor 12:9.