Praises Along the Way--The Deposit

November 22, 2008

It had been a good day, or so we thought, Danni had everyone in stitches! She was her ornery self joking with everyone. The problem came at 1 in the morning when she couldn’t stop talking… “How do I relax, mom?” she said. She couldn’t stop talking, her chest was hurting, “heart hurt, heart hurt,” was what she said to me.

“My side hurts and my shoulder, 7, 8, 9,” she went on to say indicating the level of pain from 1 to 10, 10 being the most painful. I called the nurse, apparently her anxiety had been building all day and night into the next morning, I knew that something wasn’t right.

We determined that Danni had a tolerance to the anxiety meds she was taking and needed something different, they weren't working anymore.

I sat by her bed and held her hand to keep her from picking at herself from mounting anxiety. She fought with every breath to keep herself calm. Prayer came forth from her spirit like I have never heard from her.

“Father, give me the strength and courage I need to be more like you, touch and heal me, take the pain from my side.. help me to be more like you, give me courage and strength so that I can lead people to you…help so and so thank you for giving them the understanding to help us understand the scriptures…give them courage and strength to be more like you and do your will….”

On and on she went using her labored breath to pray for herself to be more like her heavenly father and praying with honest concern for others. I sat there amazed at what I was hearing, the Spirit inside of her was taking control and taking the awful circumstances she was in to cause her to cry out to him to be more like him, to bless others, to protect others and to make good come from bad.

At three we knew the nurse would be on her way with the new anxiety meds and I couldn’t take it anymore. I was exhausted and Matt said, “Go to bed, I’ll sit with her.” As he sat with her she was whispering things to him. He couldn’t hear what she was saying so he got down so he could hear clearly. “Do you think Mal and Wes will be okay?” she said “You tell them I’m praying for them every day…”

Mal and Wes are Danni’s step-sister and brother, Matt’s children. Matt broke. Once again her concern with the breath she had was for someone else. This doesn’t come from her as an individual but from the Holy Spirit that lives within her.

Romans 8:26 says, “In the same way the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express…”

He comes along side; he walks with us and even prays for us! What a vivid expression of this we witnessed as the Holy Spirit rose in Danni and prayed through her prayers of faith and deliverance. It was a beautiful, awe inspiring thing to behold.

The word is true! We can put our faith in it! We can believe what it says! What a comfort in such a dark time to see that God was still in control. As bad as the circumstances were, the Spirit was revealing himself to us through Danni.

The nurse came around 7am and administered the new meds to her and I’m told she went right to sleep. She was exhausted and so were we but what a privilege to actually see the deposit of the Holy Spirit within her guaranteeing what is to come! (2 Corinthians 1:22, 2 Cor. 5:5 and Ephesians 1:14) What rest for a mother’s heart.


jj said...

Oh God, thank you.

Thank you, Christy, for taking the time to share all this with us.

Danni, you will know someday how amazing you are. You have always been special and beautiful and funny, and God is using your God-given personality in this illness. You were always destined for greatness!

Mal, Wes, Jess, and Atlee, please know that we love all of you too and hope you know that God has big (and I mean BIG) plans for you!

Anonymous said...

I am so insprired by your courage and your faithfulness to our kind and loving God. When tragedy strikes us and we often feel all alone it is the easiest time to give up, walk away, turn away from our faith. Even when you are a Chrisian and you are walking with God you get lost in your grief and can't see what is lying ahead. I know Danni is touching and changing lives and I don't think you will ever know the magnitude of people that God has changed through Danni. I continue to pray healing over her and your entire family. There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain and no more fear. There will be a day when I see Jesus face to face. This is a new Christian song (I don't know the singer). God Bless you and we love you.

Anonymous said...

Danni, you are such a beautiful person inside and out! Your selflessness amazes me. Your story is touching and changing peoples lives daily. As always, you and your entire family are in my thoughts and prayers

Janet Stone said...

Once again, another gift from God. Not great circumstances to be sure, but still, another blessing from above. We are all truly blessed Christy by your blog and the way you are able to tie in everything she's going through with a verse from the Bible. It is a constant source of amazement. I know you're all extremely tired, but by the grace of God you continue.

Thank you Jesus for allowing the Holy Spirit to pray through Danni. She is such a gift to all of us. May You God, reach down and touch her. Help her to be comfortable and to feel your peace. Please continue to be with Christy, Matt and their families. Help Mal and Wes to know that they're loved by you more than they could ever understand. Be with Jessie and Atlee too Lord. Let them see your fingerprints all over this situation and feel your presence. In Jesus name, amen.

Anonymous said...

I thank God for you! You and Danni have touched so many lives! Your life is amzzing...and we all walk with you each day each new path that appears and don't ever forget that God is holding your hand and will never move by your side. He is there! All of our love and prayers go out to you and your entire family!