Sore Knees, 3 a.m. Pancakes, and New Life

February 25, 2008
Dashing through the snow, no horse, no sleigh- I got a text about 10:40 pm from Danni. We have been communicating through phone texting because she's upstairs and I'm down, usually. It's a miracle that she can text at all! She asked for a pain pill for her knees. Her knees? I went up to see her and she was truly in pain. Why her knees? Still haven't figured that one out. They were tender to the touch, so I called the doctor. The doctor on call said that it could possibly be blood clots in her legs. We loaded her up for the hospital around 11:30 pm. What a ride, snow everywhere, cars in the ditch. Police pulling people out of the ditch via wrecker service. Those poor guys, what a yuckie night to be working. Finally, we reached Kendallville Parkview. They took all her information and put her in a examining room.

The doctor came in, examined her legs, and said that he was very certain that it wasn't blood clots. We were all relieved and left the hospital joking. Danni saw some coffee in the lobby and jokingly asked if I wanted some coffee, decalf of course! Very funny. Back through the snow we went and thank God we made it safely home. "Well, if nothing else, you made a memory," my mom had commented after we arrived. It's so hard to know when to go and when not to go. I try not to overreact but I want her to have the best of care. I felt so dumb. Better safe than sorry I guess.

February 27, 2008
3 am pancakes - "I got a sharky attack," she said, "I was hungry!" With one eye open, I watched her pour pancake batter onto the little pan. That's something new, I thought to myself. The other morning it was a 4 a.m. bath, today its pancakes at 3 a.m. I guess she's still in college mode. I am in awe at the information that she still has. The Lord was with the doctor for sure! I am so grateful to God for every bit of her memory she still has left. Even if it is something like making pancakes.

The house is quiet this time of day so I decided to take advantage of it and fire up the laptop. I bundled myself in blankets on the couch and the words came from my fingers tapping gently on the keys. Some people would say, "Isn't medicine amazing?" I say, "Isn't God amazing?" Before God gave the technology to man, people just died from something like Danni's condition. I learned from my research guru friend Steph that people with Gioblastoma Multiforme are usually over 50 and that only 2 out of every 100 cancer patients have this form of cancer. My hubby Matt has added to these thoughts with his own research that only people in stage 4 get this kind of technology (chemo wafers). She had to have the worst form to get the best treatment. That blows my mind.

Earlier this evening, Danni and I were discussing this and she said to me, "It's so hard to believe, who would have known that a month ago I would have brain cancer." "I was going to school full time and working." "I know," I said. "The Bible says we are but a "mist" or a "vapor" and we can be gone at any moment (James 4:14). I guess we don't generally think of life in those terms but it is so true. My hubby Matt says we are all terminal. At any moment, our life can be snuffed out. It's only by the grace of God that Danni is alive. Only because of the prayers of people who love her, only because God decided to allow her to live.

Life is so fragile, and really all we have in it are the relationships we've made along the way with family and God. I hope and pray that if there is anyone out there who doesn't know God, they would make that choice today. The Bible says, "Now is the day of salvation," (2 Corinthians 6:2). The enemy tells us lies like, "Wait until you are older, then you can do what you want and still serve God and make it into heaven." Or, "You're not good enough to ask Jesus into your heart, you don't deserve it." Lies, lies, lies, just to buy him more time. The Word says, "The thief (Satan) comes to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10) but Jesus comes that we may have life, and have it to the full." So true. I don't know why the Lord has put this on my heart today. But it is for someone. Don't wait! That next breath may not be there. If you don't know him, pray with me.

“Jesus, I know my life is dirty, full of sin and crud. I'm tired of carrying all the garbage from the past and I want you to come into my heart and cleanse me and make me new; give me life to the max! Amen.”

It’s as simple as that. Pray it out loud, mean it from your heart, and believe that he's real, that he died for your sins. If this has been for you and you know who you are, send me a comment to let me know how you felt and what God did for you. It's good to tell someone of your decision. Don't get discouraged if you mess up again in the next few minutes or hours or days. It took some time for you to get to the point in your life where you realized how much you needed him and it only serves as a reminder of how much we continue to need him. He came to save those who were in need of him, not those who didn't need him.

He will lift your burdens off of you and make you new; and during the storms that you will face in life, he'll give you peace during the circumstances, I guarantee it.

7 comments:

Chaplain Sam said...

I am a TFC Chaplain and got the link to your blog from JJ. I just want you to know that my wife, Margaret, and I are praying for your family.
May God continue to surround you with His ministering spirits.

Anonymous said...

3 am pancakes and a 4 am bath wow!!! Your "baby" is 19 and still getting you up in the middle of the night.
When she is completely healed from this cancer, which we all know God is going to do, you should ask Harold for a Sunday behind the pulpit sister you got it going on with the ministy!! Love ya, Marianne Miller

Elizabeth Lehman said...

Christy, I commend you for those words you wrote. You may never know how many people accepted Christ because of it. Praise the Lord. I am so glad Danni is doing so well. God is a healer; body and soul.
He loves you and so do I.
Liz Lehman

Nsparrow said...

Hi I'm Nick i work with danni's grandma Barb Frain and the bakery, she told me about this blog, so i checked it out. I am glad to see that she is doing well, i will continue to have her and all of you in my prayers.
ttyl
God Bless
--Nick

Anonymous said...

HI THIS IS MICHELLS MOM SHE WORKED AT TIFFINYS WITH DANNI. I HAVE FULL BELIEF IN GOD CAUSE HE GAVE ME THE STRENGTH TO FIGHT A FEW YEARS BACK WHEN I WAS SICK.I HOPE FOR DANNI THE SAME MICHELLE SPEAKS OFTEN OF HER SO I FEEL LIKE I KNOW HER.I WILL KEEP READING ABOUT HER EVERYDAY TO SEE HOW SHE IS DOING.SO STAY STRONG AS I KNOW YOU WILL.MY PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU ALL. PAM LUNG

Anonymous said...

HEY DANNI AND FAMILY,
FIRST OFF I WANT TO SAY HOW VERY HAPPY I AM THAT YOU ARE HOME AND STILL THE SAME DANNI INSIDE. WHEN THEY SAY ''ITS WHAT THATS INSIDE THAT REALLY COUNTS'' THATS WHAT DOES REALLY MATTER, AND GOD HAS GIVEN YOU SUCH A GREAT HEART DANNI. TO CHRISTY THE LAST COUPLE YEARS HAVE BEEN ONE BIG OBSTACLE FOR ME, IVE SEEN SOO MANY DIFFERENT SIDES OF ME AND I NEVER KNEW WHO I WANTED TO BE OR HOW I WANTED TO LIVE. WHEN I READ WHAT YOU WROTE ABOUT ASKING GOD TO FORGIVE YOU AND REALLY BELIEVING IN HIM, SOMETHING REALLY DID HIT ME AND I KNOW NOW THAT, THATS WHAT I HAVE TO DO. ASK FOR HIS FORGIVENESS AND REALLY BELIEVE IN HIM. I WORRY SOO MUCH ABOUT NOT BEING ABLE TO WATCH MY DAUGHTER GROW UP. YOUR FAITH IN GOD HAS MADE ME REALIZE THAT I NEED TO LET GOD DO HIS JOB, AND I NEED TO LEARN TO LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST AND NOT WORRY SOO MUCH ABOUT WHERE LIFE WILL TAKE ME. SO THANK YOU SOO MUCH FOR YOUR KIND WORDS AND YOUR HELP TO HELPING MYSELF BE A BETTER PERSON. MADISYN AND I ARE STILL PRAYING FOR ALL OF YOU!! TAKE CARE, *AMBER & MADISYN* (MICHELLES DAUGHTER AND GRANDDAUGHTER)

Emily Worrell said...

Aunt Christy and Uncle Matt,
Pastor Joey told me today about this blog. I didn't know you had one up and running. I ran home from church today and made it through half of an entry. I didn't think I could read it. (selfish I know) After Jaclynn and Jason went to bed I sat at my computer and read every last entry. I have a relationship with the Lord, but I don't think I have ever cried, prayed or been on my knees like that before. I could hear Uncle Matt reading and at once I too could feel His warmth. Thank you! My relationship with the Lord will never be the same. It is amazing what will bring you to your knees and begin a whole new outlook on what that relationship should really be. We love you and Uncle Matt and Danni very much. Many prayers....Em